July 26, 2005

Fall Preview

I think that I am going to really dig the show Close to Home that is on CBS this fall. I keep seeing the previews for it and the more that I see them the more into the show I am getting. And its only previews!!

If you haven't checked the preview out yet do so.

As for knitting. I am half way done the back of the vest I am forcing myself to finish within the next three weeks. I also have been doing some work on Cameron's vest. Once I have it done I am going to asking opinions. So keep on the look out for it.

And I'll get some pictures posted soon. I am currently recharging the camera. What IS frustrating is that they don't sell the kodak paper for the printer doc anywhere in calgary that i've found.

July 24, 2005

more on bloglines

Okay so it is quite reassuring to know that I am not the only one who has a ton of blogs that they read.

Then there is Lynette who has over 600 blogs that she reads. That freaks me out because it means that I am missing some great blogs out there!! *yikes*

Now, here is another question. What do you do when you read the blogs?

I used to just read them and not multitask. Now however, I have started knitting because I can get quite a bit done while I am reading even though I am stopping and starting to open up the blogs.

Bloglines

I am subscribed to 346 knitting blogs.

And I read them all. Weekly.

Have you looked at how many you have lately?

**this doesn't include the blogs I read who I can't sub to bloglines with**

July 23, 2005

I finally figured it out...

I have finally figured it out. What you are asking, was I trying to figure out? Well let me tell you...its why I can't seem to finish anything for myself other than scarves or shawls...

I have been working steadily on a vest for Cameron (of which I will need opinions on, however am waiting until the second front piece is done before I ask) and I have been doing a lot of self reflection during my knitting time. Considering my projects on the go and the fact that the one's for myself, I just can't finish, they get ALMOST done and then stop. Then today, I was downstairs doing some laundry and looking at one of my kits that was sitting on the table, a vest that is a beautiful rust color that I have been wanting to do for a long time. Its going to be a super quick knit but still I have been putting it off. Anyways, to make a super long story short, I brought it upstairs and sat down with the pattern, reading it over. Looking at the sizes. Then it was like getting SMACKED in the head.

WHAM!!!

I now know why it is that I haven't been finishing things. It has to do with the fact that I can't imagine putting in all this work, only to lose the weight and have it not fit me anymore. The only problem is that I haven't been losing weight because I've been self medicating with food. So here is my solution(s):

Stop obsessing over my weight
Work out when I can
Make healthier eating choices but don't diet
and knit whatever I want and if I need to rip it out so fuckin be it.

So many out in the blogging world talk of taking their knitting apart, cutting it, frogging it, putting it all back together to make it fit. I can do that!! I don't need to be paralyzed knit wise because of my weight.

So there you have it people. No therapist needed there. Just some reading of some great blogs and knitting inspirations. My goal is to finish a project for me that is not a scarf or shawl in the next three weeks.

July 16, 2005

random thoughts

R is here for the weekend. He brought the dogs to stay with me, well two of them. Cameron is SO happy that the dogs are here and its great that they are settling in really well. We spent quite a bit of time this afternoon playing in the backyard with them.

Also, R had brought a bunch of stuff from Angel Hair Yarn for me. I love those ladies so much and miss them. BUT, if I'm not there at least I can still miss them right?

I've been having so many personal thoughts that I haven't felt much like blogging because, even though I am knitting, my thoughts are not on the yarn. I am working on Cameron's vest and have one of the front pieces almost completed. Its a quick knit out of sock yarn.

I am having to deal with deceipt and deception right now. Although the relationship is over, the hurt is still there. I am trying to be really good about it and be supportive of R and yet part of me doesn't want to be the kind person that I am. I want to rage and be angry and pissed off and throw things. Though I know that is not going to do me or my family any good. My main concern is cameron and making sure that everything is good and constant for him. Yet, right now I feel that I can't even be friends with this person whom I thought that I would always be friends with. Yet, part of me aches for the friendship because I think its so important for our family unit even if the family unit isn't together anymore. I also fear that he is going to use this weakness that I feel about the friendship in a way to manipulate me ... arg ... I hate this. So ... this is why I haven't been blogging tons. I am just trying to figure it all out in my head. But as soon as I get more knitting done I'll take some pictures.

July 9, 2005

Knit One Chat Too

Helllloooo Out there....

Okay so I haven't been posting as regularly as I have wanted. A lot has been happening in my personal world and I just haven't had the energy to be all perky and knitty for my fans.

But enough of that crap.

I went to Knit One Chat Too in Calgary on Friday. Its Stampede time here and its NUTS. I went into work on Friday (it was a day off for me) and then left after being there for 3 hours because i felt like crap warmed over. So after taking me an hour to get out of the parkade and into my neighborhood (it usually takes me 15 minutes but the stampede parade was on) I decided to do some retail therapy.

I haven't felt like doing much knitting for myself at the moment because I am having body image issues. So I have put everything for me away (except the ribby cardi ... am almost done the sleeves). I found however patterns by Bees Knees Knits. The patterns are SO cute. I am doing Aidan and then Avery. I am using a brown/blue color as the sock yarn portion and using a jean blue for the solid part. Living in Calgary is great because we can wear these types of clothes now. I also bought some yarn to knit up these cute doggies in Lucinda Guy's new toddler book. Plus I got a kit where the money goes towards women who have breast cancer AND then some pretty green silk for a scarf of some sort.

I also picked up the New Interweave Knits. I think I am going to do the Union Square Pullover. I have some really pretty brown 'Feelings'. I'll be swatching once I get some of Cameron's stuff finished. My new job allows me to be quite business casual so a nice sweater with slacks is a good combo.

its time for me to go lay down again and take more tylenol. I hate being sick and need to be over it for monday as I have an admin assistant coming in to train.